Sep 2, 2017


I know I’m waiting
Waiting for something
Something to happen to me
But this waiting comes with
Trials and challenges
Nothing in life is free
I wish that somehow
You’d tell me out aloud

That on that day I’ll be ok
But we’ll never know cause
That’s not the way it works
Help me find my way

My Lord show me right from wrong
Give me light make me strong
I know the road is long
Make me strong
Sometimes it just gets too much
I feel that I’ve lost touch

I know the road is long
Make me strong

I know I’m waiting
Yearning for something
Something known only to me
This waiting comes with
Trials and challenges
Life is one mystery
I wish that somehow
You’d tell me out aloud
That on that day you’ll forgive me
But we’ll never know cause
That’s not the way it works
I beg for your mercy

My Lord show me right from wrong
Give me light make me strong
I know the road is long
Make me strong
Sometimes it just gets too much
I feel that I’ve lost touch
I know the road is long
Make me strong

"I am as My servant thinks (expects) I am. I am with him when he mentions Me.
If he mentions Me to himself, I mention him to Myself;
and if he mentions Me in an assembly, I mention him in an assembly greater than it.
If he draws near to Me a hand’s length, I draw near to him an arm’s length.
And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed."
(Sahih Bukhari)

Nov 11, 2015

Shut it down, bring it up.

Ever you feel, like turning back the clock. But say, Allah really allow you to, and you can’t even decide to which part of your life that you wish you can go back to- there you go, you just can’t.

Allah.. It’s  very tiring.
Extremely tiring.

piqa penat.
penat sangat..,

If i, myself can’t “make it”, really can’t make it, please Allah, please.. Please do it for me. Please plant “those” for me.


Dari Abu Hurairah dia berkata; “Rasulullah SAW bersabda:

Mukmin yang kuat lebih baik dan lebih dicintai oleh Allah SWT daripada Mukmin yang lemah.

Pada masing-masing memang terdapat kebaikan.
Bersemangatlah melakukan hal yang bermanfaat untukmu dan meminta tolonglah pada Allah, serta janganlah engkau malas (menjadi orang yang lemah).

Apabila kamu tertimpa suatu kemalangan, maka janganlah kamu mengatakan; ‘Seandainya tadi aku berbuat begini dan begitu, niscaya tidak akan menjadi begini dan begitu’. Tetapi katakanlah; ‘lni sudah takdir Allah dan apa yang dikehendaki-Nya pasti akan dilaksanakan-Nya.

Dan jauhilah olehmu dari ucapan ‘Seandainya’ (kalau), karena sesungguhnya ungkapan ‘Seandainya’ (kalau) membuka peluang masuknya syaitan”

HR Muslim No: 4816) Status: Hadis Sahih

Go go taufiqah!

Dec 29, 2014

Us. Really?

It doesn’t feel right.
It’s not.

Be tough taufiqah. At least for Fateh.

Allah, help us. Please..
And indeed, help me.

Nov 21, 2013


Dan bacakanlah (wahai Muhammad) di dalam kitab Al Quran ini perihal Maryam, ketika dia memencilkan diri dari keluarganya di sebuah tempat sebelah timur.

Kemudian Maryam membuat dinding untuk melindungi dirinya dari mereka maka Kami hantarkan kepadanya Ruh dari Kami lalu ia menyamar diri kepadanya sebagai seorang lelaki yang sempurna bentuk kejadiannya.

Maryam berkata: Sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepada (Allah) Ar Rahman daripadamu, kalaulah engkau seorang yang bertaqwa.

(Maryam, 19: 16- 18)

Maryam, a girl known well, very well, not only to almost every soul in this dunnya, but far across the arasy'. A woman, so precious she is that a surah is named after her and her story is being told over and over again in many other surah in the Quran. A woman, so noble not only with that golden blood running in her veins, but also for the fact that she's positioned in the very same line among the woman promised for a an absolute secured guarantee for a place in Jannah, and indeed, a special place to Allah.

So famous she is whilst ironically, for the truth- she's a woman most covered,
best well- kept secret ever.

Such a clean girl. No dirt.



"ketika dia memencilkan diri dari keluarganya"

She was born from the fruits of hope, promise, and prayer beyond for the sake of the continuation of the zurriyyat- greater it is, for the sake of the Deen, for Allah. She was placed away, far, far away from the hectic and chaos of dunnya and she, herself was being honest with it. She pulled herself away from those either. There's no such thing that she had herself stood for rebel or anything as such upon what was being decided by her mother and by her uncle Nabi Zakaria. She was placed far, far from the superficial guardian of hers.

What do we, the ladies do when we are away from our family? From our guardian? How do we behave? How do we dress ourselves as? How do we socialize?

Let Maryam teaches us..

"Maryam membuat dinding untuk melindungi dirinya dari mereka"

Literally, it was a place she hides in, giving her shades and protection. Nabi Zakaria built her a small house for her to live her life, for her to perform her 'ibadah.

Nonetheless, highlight there- the statement saying Maryam builds a wall while we know from the story, his uncle Nabi Zakaria who won the voting upon being her guardian was the one who built the house for her. Could it mean a young girl like her helping out, lifting up bricks assisting the construction of the house for her to live in?

It's more than just those building we can vividly think of, really.. It's the wall, a barrier Maryam created on her own, to protect herself from "them". Talk about those that often drag us, the ladies from where we are supposed to stand still at; alluring fashionable clothes, dresses, jeweleries, high heels..

"maka Kami hantarkan kepadanya Ruh dari Kami lalu ia menyamar diri kepadanya sebagai seorang lelaki yang sempurna bentuk kejadiannya."

And yes, another thing a girl is undeniably often being tested with- guys (hot guys, to be exact..). 

We should admit this, don't we? The guys we secretly admire of, guys we saw or met even for a few minutes but already have their faces and figures floating in our mind, guys that give us heavy hot blush and heart thump, guys we shout out loud for, guys we spend some or a lot of time with and of whom crowding our heart and soul, leaving only a little space for Allah to conquer our thoughts, our 'ibadah, our life..

Guys who make ladies fall and even give everything with no solid and Allah- permitted reasons.. Guys who make ladies; the non hijabis, hijabis, and even niqabis to have their dignity and shame directly or indirectly melts away, blurring or even go against the principle of pure ikhtilat..

So Maryam, tell us more. More. What kind of building it is? What kind of wall you made to protect yourself?

"Maryam berkata: Sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepada (Allah) Ar-Rahman daripada (gangguan) mu kalaulah engkau seorang yang bertaqwa."

Her wall is made of avoidance. An escaped of avoidance.
It's made of the strong virtue of Iman, filled with the strong feeling of awareness and fear.

"Sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepada (Allah) Ar Rahman.."

She's aware of her condition. Being a woman, which is logically weaker than a man. She's alone in her place. No doubt she's in fear. Fear to what can possibly done by a man towards a woman. And defenitely it is- fear to Allah. She aware of her status- a muslim woman. She made her effort anyhow. Big effort- hiding and at that moment, taking not even a single step or try to approach the guy. Not opening even a little inch of opportunity for him to get her. None. As for that, she then surrendered. No, not to the guy. Not to that handsome, perfect guy in front of her. To Allah. And she have a strong faith to the Most Loving Allah.

"..daripadamu kalaulah engkau seorang yang bertaqwa."

And she has faith to the guy too. To the pious, devoted guy- if that's who he is. 

There, Maryam does tell us a simple, basic criteria of "seorang yang bertaqwa". No such nonsense of aku mendambakan lelaki yang boleh menjadi imam etc, etc, etc.. At times, we don't have to wish or seeking so much for the pious man where it's enough for us to be able to spot them.

And you see, there's a possibility for a "good man" to somehow be anywhere around a girl, around girls, but strictly it is- no such thing that can pollute the atmosphere of taqwa. He will do nothing, as in n.o.t.h.i.n.g; in term of no whatever- whatsoever, small- the- matter and no- purpose talks or actions. If there's any, it's going to be significantly important, and it's fillah. 


"Allah melihat ke dalam hati para hambaNya. Dan didapatiNya hati Muhammad s.a.w adalah yang paling putih. Maka Allah memilih Nabi dan utusan yang membawa risalah penutupNya. Lalu Allah melihat lagi ke dalam hati para hambaNya, maka didapatiNya hati sahabat- sahabat Muhammad adalah yang paling jernih. Maka Dia pun menjadikan mereka sahabat yang mendukung dan menolongnya dalam menegakkan risalah."
(Abdullah ibn Mas'ud)

kita jaga diri k.

Putih, jernihkan diri kita, Allah akan atur kita untuk bersama dengan orang2 yang putih, jernih juga. Bersama hidup untukNya, bersama tsabat di jalanNya. Bersama di syurga.

Akh Ammar died at a young age, as a syahidullah, biidznillah.
No girls living in this dunnya deserves him, perhaps.
And Maryam, a virgin who was made pregnant, biidznillah, without a husband.
No guys living in this dunnya deserves her, perhaps..
-al fatihah-

Apr 6, 2011

I need My Guardian

It's the last day of my orientation for the clinical rotation.. Except for the 1st day, the rest of the other days are of which I've been having these gloomy feeling deep inside..

I don't know who I can actually talk to.. Express my feeling to..
Feel like wearing a mask of a happy care- free face whilst having such a crying, shivering heart inside:'(

Rasa nak bawa bekal, picnic dekat tepi air terjun........

Indeed, Allah knows how much I'm very grateful and happy for being selected to enter the 1st wave of Ko'as. I'm excited as much as how I'm all bubbled upon any wonderful thing can ever happen to me.. 

Alhamdulillah..  Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..

Nonetheless, I'm scared..
Very scared..

My first department would be Anesthesiology and Reanimation, starting this Monday..
Rabbi yassir wala tuassir..

O Allah.. I need You.. As I always do, always.
In every second that the clock ticks.In every breath that I take.. In every detail of life that I have..
You are the Best of Guardian.. With The Best of Care and Love..
You own me, everything of me.
To You I serve my soul, my heart, my life to.

Taufiqah takmo nangis dah. Taufiqah kuat. Kuat. Kuat. Kuat!


Jan 25, 2011

Stay With Me..

It had been a truly cold day today. Made me chilled inside out. My anxiety was at its highest peak for the Forensic paper to be sit this morning and for my first time of going out wearing long hijab..

I owe my honey sister a lot.. She helps and encourages me to the fullest once I told her about this matter and still being such ever..

I picked black for there's one friend who told me that's the color of Rasulullah wives' clothes. Perhaps it can be a good kick- start. I cut and sew it myself as nice as possible.. I'm not sure is the shape and size I made is the way how it should be or the other ways round.. Front's length reaches some few centimeters below my navel and back's length reaches around my waist. Ni yang 1st.. Nanti yang lain2 lepas ni nak buat lagi bagus..

To see me in the mirror, I felt myself melting. Felt like crying.. Palpitations.

Ruhi was the first to see me this morning.

"Wahhh.. Comellll"

Ok. Takut dah kurang sikit..

Then to reach campus, the the first eyes I had mine to meet with were my very dear Hanim and Tika.. Their presences were what I needed a lot to sooth my trembling heart, their words and pamper were what I needed a lot to strengthen my weaken knees:') My hands were pretty cold and somewhat shivered so I held Tika's hand tightly. I felt like hugging them, but afraid that I'll shed my tears.. Nak exam ni. Takmo emo2~

Lots of our friends reached then. The boys truly embarrassed me.. Tapi bila pk balik, jadi gelak pulak^^ Some few faces and words I would love to capture:

Nasrul: Waahh. Pqa! Alhamdulillahhhh~

Nazirul: *The typical him when he's amazed or blur or apa2 yang sewaktu dengannya- mata besar, mulut nganga sikit*

Even William and Ray asked me about it..

I couldn't even raise my chin up and indeed couldn't directly see them in the eyes.. Aiyok. Rasa macam baru kenal je pulak dengan diorang ni-_- 

Before the examination started,  Mal came and gave a light soft pinch on my cheek.  


She wished me luck.. I told her what I felt and she told me how much she understands upon what I felt.. I believe she truly do. She'd been in my place, though in somewhat a different situation.. I have a truly huge respect to her on that.. Her smile and her words touched me deep and made me felt bolder. Thank you Mal:')

Ok. Takut dah kurang lagi..

Hanim kept saying how much she loves to see me in this way.

" I rasa tenang je tengok you macam ni.."

O Allah.. She'd been the remedy for an eye sore to me all this while.. The chamber of my comfortableness.. Person I can get myself as bubbly as possible.. A shoulder to cry on.. It's good to know I can be that way for her either.. She told me her wishes to also wear long hijab. She used to before, during her schoolhood.. Wahh~ Sangat suka. Ada geng nanti^^

Well.. When she also joined the Daurah that day, my heart bloomed like a morning glory flower. What more if she ever does the same thing for this one. She's my bestfriend.. She makes a significant part in me:')

I have my own reasons of having myself to go for all this stuff.. Reasons beyond what I can share to anyone, even to Emak.. It may not be hard to others, but it somehow indeed is to me.. It was the 1st day of my struggle and I found lots of things which help making me believe that I've made a right decision:')

To get myself ready for class this morning, I found that it does a good help for me to keep a long healthy hair. I can make a simple ponytail without having to worry if it can be seen as the hijab is long enough to cover it. Anak2, kalau sanggul rambut banyak2 sangat nanti rambut macam tak berapa sihat..

Then, Ruhi and me had our Zohor prayer together in Super Sambal for lunch. I performed my solat in what I was wearing.. Tak payah pakai telekung^^ Another jackpot that I used "Stokin wudhuk", i.e it can be folded up without having had to be taken off..

To boot, it's a lot easier for me to do my hijab especially as only 1 brooch is needed. Previously, I need 4 brooches to pin my hijab~ I'm not the "lilit sana lilit sini" type of girl, nevertheless, I'm quite particular about looking presentable. Selalunya memang sangat lame nak pakai tudung. Ish..

Sumayyah yang baby je lagi ni pun relax je pakai tudung besar. Mak tah ni.. Belemoih la~ Ish ish..
Meh duduk Perlis dengan Sumayyah, kursus pakai tudung labuh~

Withal, Alhamdulillah..
Thank you Allah for the strength You showered me with,
right from the Great Love and Care of Yours
and through everyone around me..
 Learning.. Learning.. Learning..
Insya Allah..

Jan 16, 2011

To feel Loved and Protected

Went for our usual weekend Daurah yesterday. More akhwat Jakarta with us and the juniors look as eager as babies to hand- feed almost everything. Same goes to me. Tapi Piqa kan kakak, control sikit. Hee~

In the morning, my heart blooming to the fullest to see Ruz:') Ruz gave me a big hug and I hugged her tightly. Rindu sangat dekat Ruz.. I have to excuse myself earlier for my thesis's experiment. Before I left, Dib told me there was a souvenir. The typical me, my heart jumping with great excitement. Wee~ Ada hadiah^^

They hugged me so close, kissed and Dayah handed me a truly sweet give, fruiting a feeling I hardly experience on other gifts I usually get..


"Semoga tsabat di jalan ini."

Love, akhwat jakarta.

Felt happy and touched. Deeply touched..

Somewhat the same developing in me like months ago, whilst I were drowning pathetically in the mud where Tika and Ain texted me and they began with;

"Piqa, Tika sayang sangat Piqa"
"Piqa, Ain sayang sangat Piqa"
But that time, I was also filled with embarrassment and regrets..
This time, SEMANGAT~

O Allah.. I love them either. Very much. Beyond what I can actually say or show.. Please pour them, pour us, the very blessed of Your Love ever..

Jan 4, 2011

Gratitude to The One

Well.. I was wondering around through loads of file in my lappy to get some idea for my Islamic Class assignment, then I found a video in my 2nd year folder: From Conception To Birth. Feel quite fragile and dull at this moment, so I worked on this video that somehow, someway, I feel refreshed. Not that much, but it helps.

Sit back, relax, and here, a gift~

Enjoy the video:)
*keep your volume high*

May we always remember who created us, how, and why.

Jan 1, 2011

Another Gift From HIM:)

Alhamdulillah.. Blessed with another year to have:) As much as I could recall it back, this 2011 celebration is the most beautiful new year eve I've ever had..

Our Daurah was held in Parangtritis which takes almost 1 hour from my home. Long distance trip on a bike is way more exhausting than that of a car. Howbeit, me, hitchhiking Celina had a little less of such than her. Huu.. Thank you Celina.. Lain kali akak bawa awak naik scooter akak pulak^^

The place was nice. And I always love the trip. Paddy field area is always a remedy for an eye sore:) I Felt very much welcomed by the Usrah members even I was a new comer.. The Daurah gave me a truly splendiferous warmth, I hardly could explain how much it really is and I believe my one night insomnia is merely a tiny single dust compared to the rest of other things I have.

To note, the road which is just 100m outside from our homestay had never failed being occupied by vehicles, and people crowding at the area to celebrate the new year brought noises which got worst when the fireworks were lighted up. They even sang so many songs which amazingly became a lullaby to me. Siap2 baring nak tidur pukul 10pm tapi sampai pukul 12.30am dapat dengar lagi orang dodoikan.. Ish Ishh..

Well.. Our big topic is SAYONARA JAHILIYAH.. I learned and discovered lots of things.. Here I am, realizing how so little things I know and remember in my life.. To boot, there are so many things which make me hold on the ground stronger upon handling things which put a heavy loads on my shoulder, especially at these moments..

"Tidak ada seorangpun yang meninggalkan keburukan yang ia rasakan nikmat, hanya kerana Allah, kecuali ia pasti menemukan gantinya dari Allah."
(Ibnu Sirin)

On a blessed morning of 1.1.11, Tika let me to be the Imam for our Subuh prayer. It wasn't the first time for me to lead the prayer, but the feeling was utterly different..

My resolution is to really work not merely towards becoming a good Muslim, but sure-fire a good Mukmin. Insya Allah..

We had the closing curtain of our Daurah with a lovey dovey times in Parangtritis beach and enjoyed huge servings of seafoods. Hee^^

Alhamdulillah.. Everything I have and I got are indeed awe-inspiring
that my heart blooming in every second the clock ticks. I'm grateful of how Allah help me to have such a beautiful ending of 2010 and beginning of 2011:')

Dec 31, 2010

Take My Hand^^

It's been quite a wonderful day today. What a blessed Friday^^

Shendy brought kuih Mochi for our group. It truly is a jackpot as kuih Mochi is my favorite kuih~~~

Mochi is made from steamed glutinous rice pounded into sticky dough, stuffed with sweet fillings such as crushed nuts, and molded into ball shape. Sedappp~


After 4 months of struggling, my research finally shows good progress. To point things out, I'm amongst the earliest who managed to complete the research proposal. Regrettably, I'm amongst the last who can really work on it smoothly.. We've tried lots of things; altering here and there on the procedures and materials, repeating the experiment so, so, so many times and today, the result of the specimen put a smile on me.

Now we already found the appropriate method, we can start wo
rking thoroughly. Alhamdulillah^^

Dr Hakim asked me to give him a treat as Malaysia won against Indonesia during the AFF Suzuki. I believe I should really buy him something, but as for the second thought: "Eish.. Tak malu minta girl belanja.." 

He had been doing half of my experiment and being very, very patient with me all this while. Terima kasih Doktor. Allah rewards you best, Insya Allah^^


Ain invited me to join Daurah held by her usrah members. I'm not very clear what Daurah is all about actually. Ain said there will be Taklim and we will spend one night together. It sounded like Keluar Tabligh to me.. 

I'm having a paper to sit next Tuesday that I'm actually pretty hesitated about it. Notwithstanding, my heart leaps sky high upon the invitation, so I'm going~

I don't have "proper" pyjama for this kind of sleep over.. Nanti "ustazah2" marah. Hoo.. Next time must put long sleeve pyjama in the shopping list!

Buhbye Kichi, Buhbye Kitty. Mama tidur dengan kawan2 malam ni...

Dec 20, 2010

Fresh Breath

Trying to really get things refreshed.. One of those efforts is having a new layout, perhaps? Hee^^

I'm glad I finally have the courage to perform Istikharah that day.. I'm glad my heart finally touched deep by the meaning of Ma'al Hijrah prayers for this 1432.. It had past about a fortnight and to date till today, I have and even bolder trust in my decision, in myself.. I can feel the calmness. Alhamdulillah.. Notwithstanding, I did have many nights of crying and self- pitying previously, I admit.. Withal, kena kuat semangat~ Takmo tersengaja manjakan atau melemahkan diri sendiri lagi Taufiqah~

Some deeds are just very much worth done within the first 10 days of Dhul Hijjah. Alhamdulillah:') Anyway, I have good material to be shared, welcome yourself to spend some time hand feeding about
First Ten Days of Dhul Hijjah: Days of Virtue And Righteous Deeds..

I should be embarrassed upon myself... Afraid to do things I should actually do, not only as a girl, but as a muslim.. All those apprehensions of being alone, or desperate and worrying what people may say yet may gossip about, and even wondering how much I would envy others had been making me forget that what reality is LEAVING EVERYTHING TO ALLAH LEAVES NO DOUBT..
Insya Allah. It unquestionable is for HE is the Most Powerful, Most Knowing of EVERYTHING.

Wamakaru wamakarallah..

I thanked Kak Nani, Ain and Tika for their gentle talks and advices.. Yesterday when we talked again, I felt even stronger.. It makes me have more faith in me. Make things even firmer.

Abah told me that he and Emak felt touched with my decision.. Bg Ngah was quite shocked, howbeit very, very glad.. I'm not yet belong to anyone; be it in legal, what more religiously. I'm bonded to Allah and absolutely my family, and soon when I'm married, my husband is then the one who has the right on me on top of my family.. Felt terrible of how much I've been letting myself being deceived by my own parents and family wish:'(

I don't want to hurt anyone, and even myself anymore..

Semoga semuanya berlaku apa yang terbaik untuk kita bagi kita, dan apa yang terbaik untuk kita bagi Allah...

Dec 7, 2010

Ma'al Hijrah

I made vows.. most *well.. surely not all* are somewhat the same as the previous years..
Looking back through the years have passed, I felt sick.
Who have I become all this while.. what have I done..
Shame on me:'(


Allah.. Tolong lah. Bagi KEKUATAN!

New Year. New Me. A better MUSLIM.


Salam Ma'al Hijrah 1432..

May 14, 2010

A Medical student, a Chef^^

"pqa, dah tak tulis blog ke?"

That's my mum, my very dear mum.. We can talk on the phone as long as an hour and more to talk about almost everything on this face of earth, or even as short as 5 minutes just for her to tell me what's she's cooking or what she's doing when her cucu2 are not around or yes, calling me to ask about my blog:)

I remembered being such a chatterbox telling her lots of stories during my childhood.. Mulut banyak, sampai cikgu nak staple.. Huhu.. I've been to science boarding school since I was 13, till 17.. Then continue to stay outside for my A Level and now here.. Guess the only time I truly, deeply am entertaining Emak with my talks was during my childhood..

April 26: I bought a scooter.. Finally~ It's great to have another BIG thing bought totally by my own money.. Skip about the flight tickets or 2 years house payment or this and that expenses; this is the 2nd pride for me after my 7 million laptop bought during the end of my 1st year.. Rasa bangga sikit dengan diri sendiri. Alhamdulillah:')

To add for the good of it, I don't have to walk back to forth of campus and home, can avoid from getting migraine or photo-sensitivity, and I can go to places without having had to pay much on the taxi or burdening others:)

Nevertheless, bad thing is: I am officially "kekurangan duit" (i.e I'm broke. Wuuu~)

I've been trying to do some "job".. Sounds funny.. But I truly actually highly determine over it.. I sell kek batik and muffins
*not really a muffin, i guess. with the shape which is actually for puddings, and the decorations which are actually for cupcakes..huhu*

Tak banyak untung pun.. Tapi tak pelah..

A little to gratify, that day Lennad, Clem2, and Alia was talking about having a Kek Batik competition of which Lennad used my recipe for such^^

Well.. Been having terrible, hot fever. It comes with chilling and all I could remember is pain. pain. pain.. Allah bless me to have such a wonderful housemates, spending hours to look after me.. Massaging, wiping me up with wet towel, feeding me food, and even put on wudhuk for me.. A healthy me is truly a mangada- ngada girl, I can't explain more how much more I become when I'm sick..... Terima kasih housemates yang disayangi :')

*Mungkin blog ni dah macam mak cik penjual kuih punya je.. Abaikan. Huhu*

Apr 17, 2010

Cooking Class:)

I made chocolate muffin last week.. Nothing oh- so- amazing about making muffin, it's just this is the 1st time I tried making it by steaming.. I altered the recipe making chocolate more dominant so the color was truly chocolate..Chocoliciousss~ Making muffin (or cake) through baking will give a somewhat crispy texture outside, and soft inside.. While steaming will give an all- over soft texture.. I don't mind much, it still taste just nice. At least I don't have to lament much for not having an oven since 1st year:')

Quite a number of people asking for the recipe that I've been thinking to put the recipe here before. But hesitate as I believe many already know how to make it.. But then, I don't think there's anything wrong about this.. Many people put their recipe online, no matter how easy it is, no matter they are truly a chef or housewife, let be men or women.. Plus, I know many people who like to search recipes on the net.. May be mine can contribute to anyone out there:)



  • Marie biscuits (around 300- 350g)
  • 2 sachets of 3 in 1 milo (total around 60g)
  • 1 cup of plain water (i usually make it half)
  • half cup to 1 cup of cocoa powder
  • 3/4 (three quarters) cup of sugar
  • half packet of butter/ margarine *i usually use margarine. it's cheaper. don't worry, the taste will be just fine:)*
  • eggs ( 1 or 2, any is okay)


  • the measurement for cocoa powder, milo, and sugar are subjects to change. alter it depend to how u like the taste to be:)
  • some people like their cake to be little harder.. so can decrease the butter n the water, n also by chilling the cake longer:) or the other way round:)
  • egg is actually not a compulsory. it's my extra, additional ingredients:)

  1. break the marie biscuits into 3, 4, or 5.. put aside.. *please.. not crushing them*
  2. prepare the egg. stir them a bit, then put aside.. *no need to stir "sampai kembang".. we are not making anything fluffy like real cake or what..*
  3. put cocoa, milo, sugar, n water together into the pan.
  4. then turn on the fire *moderate fire*, stir the mixture till the sugar are all melt, n all mixed together..
  5. then put the butter/ margarine, stir till all melting..
  6. finally put the egg. stir for a minute, then turn off the fire.*remember, u r not cooking the egg...*
  7. now put all the biscuits into the pan, mix them together, make sure all the biscuits are covered with the chocolate..
  8. then transfer them into the container.. press them well, then put into the refrigerator for 3 to 5 hours. u can take it out earlier, depend on the texture u want.. nak lembut sikit or keras sikit:)
p/s: just to share, another additional ingredients can be nestum, oat, or even nuts.. that's the other story:)

Simple, right? Trust me, later when this is at ur fingertips, you'll love doing it again and again as despite it's easy to make, it really is YUMMY^^

*I don't really do this often actually cuz the type of cocoa powder n biscuits marie I usually use are quite expensive.. at least, to me, they are expensive.. huhu*

Feb 16, 2010

With Love

I made a surprise for Emak's birthday. It's so special especially as it's a long distance surprise I made=) During my homecoming to Malaysia that day, I prepared her birthday gifts and chocolate, wrapped them decently, and placed them nicely at a quite hidden place. I went back to Jogja on Feb 2, so waiting for Feb 9 to come was such a desperate moment... Hee^^

I called Mak a night before as my brother would take her for vacation to Cameron for her birthday the next day=)

I told her nicely where she could hunt for her gifts.. From her voice, I believe Emak was so happy.. There was another gift after she had opened the 1st gift.. It was her favorite chocolate=) I've tried my best to hide it in the freezer. I've been worrying that anyone found it before this day came.Hehe.. Mak was so touched and appreciate it a lot.. Wish I can be at home at that moment, and have her hugs and kisses, as what I usually surely get.......

Happy Birthday Mak..
Semoga panjang umur, hidup sihat dan senang, murah rezeki, dimudahkan semua urusan..

Pqa sayang Mak..

Oct 6, 2009

There's a Zombie In My Room~

3.1 block exam is going to be on this very Friday, October 9 2009...
Then, again and again.. I find it's hard to make a tremendously ethical decision on this....

...luckily x reti main DOTA... otherwise.. tataw la...

Need to do a statistical inference on this desire vs necessity thingy.huu...