Dec 31, 2010

Take My Hand^^

It's been quite a wonderful day today. What a blessed Friday^^

Shendy brought kuih Mochi for our group. It truly is a jackpot as kuih Mochi is my favorite kuih~~~

Mochi is made from steamed glutinous rice pounded into sticky dough, stuffed with sweet fillings such as crushed nuts, and molded into ball shape. Sedappp~


After 4 months of struggling, my research finally shows good progress. To point things out, I'm amongst the earliest who managed to complete the research proposal. Regrettably, I'm amongst the last who can really work on it smoothly.. We've tried lots of things; altering here and there on the procedures and materials, repeating the experiment so, so, so many times and today, the result of the specimen put a smile on me.

Now we already found the appropriate method, we can start wo
rking thoroughly. Alhamdulillah^^

Dr Hakim asked me to give him a treat as Malaysia won against Indonesia during the AFF Suzuki. I believe I should really buy him something, but as for the second thought: "Eish.. Tak malu minta girl belanja.." 

He had been doing half of my experiment and being very, very patient with me all this while. Terima kasih Doktor. Allah rewards you best, Insya Allah^^


Ain invited me to join Daurah held by her usrah members. I'm not very clear what Daurah is all about actually. Ain said there will be Taklim and we will spend one night together. It sounded like Keluar Tabligh to me.. 

I'm having a paper to sit next Tuesday that I'm actually pretty hesitated about it. Notwithstanding, my heart leaps sky high upon the invitation, so I'm going~

I don't have "proper" pyjama for this kind of sleep over.. Nanti "ustazah2" marah. Hoo.. Next time must put long sleeve pyjama in the shopping list!

Buhbye Kichi, Buhbye Kitty. Mama tidur dengan kawan2 malam ni...

Dec 20, 2010

Fresh Breath

Trying to really get things refreshed.. One of those efforts is having a new layout, perhaps? Hee^^

I'm glad I finally have the courage to perform Istikharah that day.. I'm glad my heart finally touched deep by the meaning of Ma'al Hijrah prayers for this 1432.. It had past about a fortnight and to date till today, I have and even bolder trust in my decision, in myself.. I can feel the calmness. Alhamdulillah.. Notwithstanding, I did have many nights of crying and self- pitying previously, I admit.. Withal, kena kuat semangat~ Takmo tersengaja manjakan atau melemahkan diri sendiri lagi Taufiqah~

Some deeds are just very much worth done within the first 10 days of Dhul Hijjah. Alhamdulillah:') Anyway, I have good material to be shared, welcome yourself to spend some time hand feeding about
First Ten Days of Dhul Hijjah: Days of Virtue And Righteous Deeds..

I should be embarrassed upon myself... Afraid to do things I should actually do, not only as a girl, but as a muslim.. All those apprehensions of being alone, or desperate and worrying what people may say yet may gossip about, and even wondering how much I would envy others had been making me forget that what reality is LEAVING EVERYTHING TO ALLAH LEAVES NO DOUBT..
Insya Allah. It unquestionable is for HE is the Most Powerful, Most Knowing of EVERYTHING.

Wamakaru wamakarallah..

I thanked Kak Nani, Ain and Tika for their gentle talks and advices.. Yesterday when we talked again, I felt even stronger.. It makes me have more faith in me. Make things even firmer.

Abah told me that he and Emak felt touched with my decision.. Bg Ngah was quite shocked, howbeit very, very glad.. I'm not yet belong to anyone; be it in legal, what more religiously. I'm bonded to Allah and absolutely my family, and soon when I'm married, my husband is then the one who has the right on me on top of my family.. Felt terrible of how much I've been letting myself being deceived by my own parents and family wish:'(

I don't want to hurt anyone, and even myself anymore..

Semoga semuanya berlaku apa yang terbaik untuk kita bagi kita, dan apa yang terbaik untuk kita bagi Allah...

Dec 7, 2010

Ma'al Hijrah

I made vows.. most *well.. surely not all* are somewhat the same as the previous years..
Looking back through the years have passed, I felt sick.
Who have I become all this while.. what have I done..
Shame on me:'(


Allah.. Tolong lah. Bagi KEKUATAN!

New Year. New Me. A better MUSLIM.


Salam Ma'al Hijrah 1432..