I need My Guardian

It's the last day of my orientation for the clinical rotation.. Except for the 1st day, the rest of the other days are of which I've been having these gloomy feeling deep inside..

I don't know who I can actually talk to.. Express my feeling to..

Feel like wearing a mask of a happy care- free face whilst having such a crying, shivering heart inside:'(

Rasa nak bawa bekal, picnic dekat tepi air terjun........

Indeed, Allah knows how much I'm very grateful and happy for being selected to enter the 1st wave of Ko'as. I'm excited as much as how I'm all bubbled upon any wonderful thing can ever happen to me.. 

Alhamdulillah..  Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..

Nonetheless, I'm scared..

Very scared..

My first department would be Anesthesiology and Reanimation, starting this Monday..

Rabbi yassir wala tuassir..

O Allah.. I need You.. As I always do, always.

In every second that the clock ticks.In every breath that I take.. In every detail of life that I have..

You are the Best of Guardian.. With The Best of Care and Love..

You own me, everything of me.

To You I serve my soul, my heart, my life to.

Taufiqah takmo nangis dah. Taufiqah kuat. Kuat. Kuat. Kuat!

GO GO GO!