Stay With Me..

It had been a truly cold day today. Made me chilled inside out. My anxiety was at its highest peak for the Forensic paper to be sit this morning and for my first time of going out wearing long hijab..

I owe my honey sister a lot.. She helps and encourages me to the fullest once I told her about this matter and still being such ever..

I picked black for there's one friend who told me that's the color of Rasulullah wives' clothes. Perhaps it can be a good kick- start. I cut and sew it myself as nice as possible.. I'm not sure is the shape and size I made is the way how it should be or the other ways round.. Front's length reaches some few centimeters below my navel and back's length reaches around my waist. Ni yang 1st.. Nanti yang lain2 lepas ni nak buat lagi bagus..

To see me in the mirror, I felt myself melting. Felt like crying.. Palpitations.

Ruhi was the first to see me this morning.

"Wahhh.. Comellll"

Ok. Takut dah kurang sikit..

Then to reach campus, the the first eyes I had mine to meet with were my very dear Hanim and Tika.. Their presences were what I needed a lot to sooth my trembling heart, their words and pamper were what I needed a lot to strengthen my weaken knees:') My hands were pretty cold and somewhat shivered so I held Tika's hand tightly. I felt like hugging them, but afraid that I'll shed my tears.. Nak exam ni. Takmo emo2~

Lots of our friends reached then. The boys truly embarrassed me.. Tapi bila pk balik, jadi gelak pulak^^ Some few faces and words I would love to capture:

Nasrul: Waahh. Pqa! Alhamdulillahhhh~

Nazirul: *The typical him when he's amazed or blur or apa2 yang sewaktu dengannya- mata besar, mulut nganga sikit*

Even William and Ray asked me about it..

I couldn't even raise my chin up and indeed couldn't directly see them in the eyes.. Aiyok. Rasa macam baru kenal je pulak dengan diorang ni-_- 

Before the examination started,  Mal came and gave a light soft pinch on my cheek.  

"Comel.."

She wished me luck.. I told her what I felt and she told me how much she understands upon what I felt.. I believe she truly do. She'd been in my place, though in somewhat a different situation.. I have a truly huge respect to her on that.. Her smile and her words touched me deep and made me felt bolder. Thank you Mal:')

Ok. Takut dah kurang lagi..

Hanim kept saying how much she loves to see me in this way.

" I rasa tenang je tengok you macam ni.."

O Allah.. She'd been the remedy for an eye sore to me all this while.. The chamber of my comfortableness.. Person I can get myself as bubbly as possible.. A shoulder to cry on.. It's good to know I can be that way for her either.. She told me her wishes to also wear long hijab. She used to before, during her schoolhood.. Wahh~ Sangat suka. Ada geng nanti^^

Well.. When she also joined the Daurah that day, my heart bloomed like a morning glory flower. What more if she ever does the same thing for this one. She's my bestfriend.. She makes a significant part in me:')

I have my own reasons of having myself to go for all this stuff.. Reasons beyond what I can share to anyone, even to Emak.. It may not be hard to others, but it somehow indeed is to me.. It was the 1st day of my struggle and I found lots of things which help making me believe that I've made a right decision:')

To get myself ready for class this morning, I found that it does a good help for me to keep a long healthy hair. I can make a simple ponytail without having to worry if it can be seen as the hijab is long enough to cover it. Anak2, kalau sanggul rambut banyak2 sangat nanti rambut macam tak berapa sihat..

Then, Ruhi and me had our Zohor prayer together in Super Sambal for lunch. I performed my solat in what I was wearing.. Tak payah pakai telekung^^ Another jackpot that I used "Stokin wudhuk", i.e it can be folded up without having had to be taken off..

To boot, it's a lot easier for me to do my hijab especially as only 1 brooch is needed. Previously, I need 4 brooches to pin my hijab~ I'm not the "lilit sana lilit sini" type of girl, nevertheless, I'm quite particular about looking presentable. Selalunya memang sangat lame nak pakai tudung. Ish..

Sumayyah yang baby je lagi ni pun relax je pakai tudung besar. Mak tah ni.. Belemoih la~ Ish ish..

Meh duduk Perlis dengan Sumayyah, kursus pakai tudung labuh~

Withal, Alhamdulillah..

Thank you Allah for the strength You showered me with,

right from the Great Love and Care of Yours

and through everyone around me..

 Learning.. Learning.. Learning..

Insya Allah..

A Medical student, a Chef^^

"pqa, dah tak tulis blog ke?"

That's my mum, my very dear mum.. We can talk on the phone as long as an hour and more to talk about almost everything on this face of earth, or even as short as 5 minutes just for her to tell me what's she's cooking or what she's doing when her cucu2 are not around or yes, calling me to ask about my blog:)

I remembered being such a chatterbox telling her lots of stories during my childhood.. Mulut banyak, sampai cikgu nak staple.. Huhu.. I've been to science boarding school since I was 13, till 17.. Then continue to stay outside for my A Level and now here.. Guess the only time I truly, deeply am entertaining Emak with my talks was during my childhood..

April 26: I bought a scooter.. Finally~ It's great to have another BIG thing bought totally by my own money.. Skip about the flight tickets or 2 years house payment or this and that expenses; this is the 2nd pride for me after my 7 million laptop bought during the end of my 1st year.. Rasa bangga sikit dengan diri sendiri. Alhamdulillah:')

To add for the good of it, I don't have to walk back to forth of campus and home, can avoid from getting migraine or photo-sensitivity, and I can go to places without having had to pay much on the taxi or burdening others:)

Nevertheless, bad thing is: I am officially "kekurangan duit" (i.e I'm broke. Wuuu~)

I've been trying to do some "job".. Sounds funny.. But I truly actually highly determine over it.. I sell kek batik and muffins *not really a muffin, i guess. with the shape which is actually for puddings, and the decorations which are actually for cupcakes..huhu*

Tak banyak untung pun.. Tapi tak pelah..

A little to gratify, that day Lennad, Clem2, and Alia was talking about having a Kek Batik competition of which Lennad used my recipe for such^^



Well.. Been having terrible, hot fever. It comes with chilling and all I could remember is pain. pain. pain.. Allah bless me to have such a wonderful housemates, spending hours to look after me.. Massaging, wiping me up with wet towel, feeding me food, and even put on wudhuk for me.. A healthy me is truly a mangada- ngada girl, I can't explain more how much more I become when I'm sick..... Terima kasih housemates yang disayangi :')

*Mungkin blog ni dah macam mak cik penjual kuih punya je.. Abaikan. Huhu*

With Love

I made a surprise for Emak's birthday. It's so special especially as it's a long distance surprise I made=) During my homecoming to Malaysia that day, I prepared her birthday gifts and chocolate, wrapped them decently, and placed them nicely at a quite hidden place. I went back to Jogja on Feb 2, so waiting for Feb 9 to come was such a desperate moment... Hee^^

I called Mak a night before as my brother would take her for vacation to Cameron for her birthday the next day=)




I told her nicely where she could hunt for her gifts.. From her voice, I believe Emak was so happy.. There was another gift after she had opened the 1st gift.. It was her favorite chocolate=) I've tried my best to hide it in the freezer. I've been worrying that anyone found it before this day came.Hehe.. Mak was so touched and appreciate it a lot.. Wish I can be at home at that moment, and have her hugs and kisses, as what I usually surely get.......

Happy Birthday Mak..
Semoga panjang umur, hidup sihat dan senang, murah rezeki, dimudahkan semua urusan..

Pqa sayang Mak..