Do it, for YOU

I submitted my writing of "Superhero" to this one website and Allah knows how it feels to have it published. I believe many people had done so, much much more than me, and had been submitting much much better writing than me, but the gladness within are indeed awesome~ *happyyy*

Thinking of getting a part time job (I'm serious..), as Abg didn't allow me to be a part- time teacher for this time being, I was actually looking for a website of which I can get some payment through writing. After a thought or two, I found myself in the wrong intention.. I am to talk mostly about Islam or Da'wah, and my first intention is to earn money...? What happen to my effort of removing all sort of advertisements in my blog previously of which I claimed as syubhah..? Astaghfirullahhal'azim..

So there I was, submitting what I already wrote, intentionally only for the sake of sharing, Lillahita'ala. Seeing others who can write far better, who can touch others well for the benefits of Islam, I'm actually do embarrassed..

This makes me think anyway, how much things I've done in my life is actually, honestly, truly Lillahita'ala.. For Allah.. My study.. My work.. My efforts of this and that.. MY LIFE.

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We had a Daurah last week, of which not all, but many of my Murabbi were gathered together where that eventually made this one is my favourite Daurah..

Perhaps Tika and Dib prefer not me to behave this way, I know they certainly want me to always being able to be independent, but indeed, I miss having them around. Having them to take care of me.. Indeed, I'm much pampered being taken care by my lovely family, my very dear Abg, my wonderful friends.. Being a Mutarabbi to them all this while..

It'd been approximately freshly 3 months where I become the Murabbi to one Usrah.. Having myself being solely a Mutarabbi to others for years previously didn't give me much clue, real clue upon being a Murabbi, until I myself experiencing it..

Tika, especially, had been taking care of me well, wonderfully as a friend, as a Murabbi, fillah, especially during my pregnancy. Waking (and forcing, huu) me up everyday for qiamullail, joining me in my room for solat jemaah, teaching me lots of things be it about religion or our practical, and sharing things I've been through all this while.. She often pour me with comforting and heart- warming words..

*Sunnah of Rasulullah whilst spending time with sick people: always talk nice things and pray for their good and luck:)*

I've been holding my sadness back in front of my Mutarabbi.. Always try my best to be mature and look dependable in front of them.. Keeping my baby- temper deep inside.. Being sulk alone:'( Am I a boring naqibah? Am I being too gentle? Allah.. Grow up pqa..

After all the things I've been through, there I was that day, crying on Dib's lap pouring out my sadness all over.. I'm upset by my ownself.. Feel like I don't deserve to do this.. I have lots lots lots of things to tell them, a lot, but much of what I able to do was crying. I finally can be myself when my Murabbi are around.. And that, Allah knows- was such a big relief..

Tika, Dib, Shida.. Pqa minta maaf sangat sebab dah menyusahkan..

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There's a big responsibility, huge tasks to be done, to achieve the great target. For Allah, for Islam..

There are lots of works to be done.

Let's work together.

For Allah.

"In advising you, it does not mean that I am the best among you. 

Not even the most righteous among you, as I had also transgressed beyond the limit of my ownself.

If a person is only able to perform da'wah when he's perfect, certainly there would be no da'ie. 

Hence there will be very few who will remind others."

"Sesungguhnya aku sedang menasihati kamu, bukanlah bererti akulah yg terbaik dalam kalangan kamu. Bukan juga yang paling soleh dalam kalangan kamu, kerana aku juga pernah melampaui batas untuk diri sendiri. Seandainya seseorang itu hanya dapat menyampaikan dakwah apabila dia sempurna, nescaya tidak akan ada pendakwah. Maka akan jadi sikitlah orang yang memberi peringatan".

(Hasan al Basri)

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Congratulation to Kak Aliaazuan and Kak Umu for the birth of their precious mujahidah~

Congratulation to Kak Shuhada for the success of being in the midst of 2nd trimester of the pregnancy~

Congratulation to Mei for now tip- toe into the 2nd trimester of pregnancy~

Barakallah:')

Doakan pqa, dipping into the 3rd trimester's..