The Silhouette of Nikah

I'm scared.. Allah knows how much my heart and soul are shivering now..

Thinking of the responsible, the huge responsible as a wife. As the 2nd leader of a great ship..

Scared. Excited.Worry.Yaqeen.Bliss.

Bliss, here in and here after. Amin. Amin. Allahumma amin..

I prepared numbers of things on my own for my wedding.. I always love D.I.Y thingy. There are things I believe I can do it by myself instead of buying or getting others to do for me, so I go for it. My heart blooms like a morning glory having to see my own works and an indeed the good part is, getting myself busy for "Taufiqah- handcraft- time" helps to calm my trembling heart and put a spark of excitement in me^^  Alhamdulillah..

I made the wedding card by myself..
I made the roses for the decoration of the gifts i.e hantaran for him and for the flower girls to hold:)

I sew my own wedding veils. Been putting it on so so many times.. Ish.

I designed and altered my own wedding garments:)

I design and altered the gowns for the flower girls:)

nanti dapat jadi princess^^

I've long planning of having my personal wedding garments i.e not rented, as to keep the garments worn in one of the most beautiful and blessed day in my life would be such a tender value.. Like the old folks, of which the can show it to their children and even grandchildren.. Like how Mak did either:)

My wedding garments are done, Alhmdulillah.. Nonetheless, my housemates said that they look too simple and plain.. "It's once in a lifetime event~". Hurm.. I know.. Nevertheless, even before I dress the way I am now, I'm indeed not the kind who prefer those eye- catchy type of clothes.. Indisputably is, I love feminine, sweet and pretty cloth, but it's a no- no for me to wear anything so blink- blink.. I always opt for beautiful but simple one, at least in my own preferences. Baiklah.. Baiklah.. Will consider for an extra decorations, shiny bead, perhaps. It doesn't make me feel good if people feel pathetic in seeing me during my wedding.. Huu..

I try my best to involve in the wedding, not wanting to burden Mak and Abah, and my family. There's a guilt in me that I'm getting married whilst studying.. I believe it's not wrong to say that I can financially help them better if I get married during the time I already am working.. Hence, there are lots of things I volunteered myself to handle the expenditures on my own.. Still, Mak and Abah don't let me be the so- called independent baby.. Thank you Mak.. Thank you Abah..:')

And really, it's not only the fact that I want things to be descent and simple and not wanting to be too much on the expenditures.. It's about being moderate.. To be frank, honestly, deep inside, as many of the girls are; I dream of a grand, wonderful wedding. Full of beautiful decorations, fresh roses filling the environment. Dream of wealth~

Nevertheless, we have options in our life. We can choose. About our life, our plans, and the partner of our life; fiddunia wal akhirah. And I believe the best way to make decisions is with the guidance of Allah, and the teaching of Rasulullah s.a.w. Rasulullah s.a.w asked us to always be moderate.. Even in our ibadah.. And besides all of the other things, the main to highlight is the marriage itself.. Marriage is ibadah..

Somehow, directly or indirectly; we are preparing more for the wedding rather than the marriage, don't we..?

To be honest, I don't have such adamant assuredness that I'm now a well- prepared individual Muslim to be a wife, to step on the upper stair.. Howbeit, Wamakaru wamakarallah.. I have faith in Allah. A hefty and solid confidence in Him and His promises, especially in this matter, His promises about marriage.

May Allah provide us His best of Guidance, His best of protection, and His great bless for the stand of this Baitul Muslim. May it always, always, always be in such ways that is best for us to us, best for us to Allah. May it able to bring good to our Deen, to the ummah.
  

Amin. Amin. Allahumma Amin..